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Dec. 5th, 2005 @ 12:01 am Love
Current Mood: numb
Current Music: Gary Jules - Mad World
Love has a terrible after taste.
Bitter - Like the anger burning in your thoughts.
Sour - Like the feelings taking it's place.
Salty - Like the tears shed in silence.
Sweet - Like the memories left behind.
Love is so hard to swallow...
Your heart is constantly stuck in your throat.
And all you can do is try to breathe.
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Jan. 6th, 2005 @ 07:03 pm 'Cause I feel like it...
Current Mood: angry
Current Music: Orange Range - Asterisk
Suggestion, stray from thinking to much about me while reading this. Not a smart idea and I'll get alot of bizarre attention I'll have to find creative ways of avoiding. I was just furious and needed a way to vent.

Staring into your angry eyes,
I can see through your manipulative lies,
You think you can change me, hurt me, kill me,
Do something that will crush the spirit within me.
Well I'll tell you now such antics won't work,
Everyone knows how you tend to go berserk.
Punch me, kick me, or bite into my skin,
Beat me till I wish death to begin.
You cannot hurt a soul of stone,
Even though I stand alone,
Nothing will hold me back from staring at you,
and realizing my you act the way you do.

Look what you did to me...
Blood on my hands, alcohol at your feet.
Nothing tells me something isn't connecting here.
I feel in in the mark on my cheek,
The glass in my cuts,
The burning liquid in my eyes.
Trust and dependence drip away like the wine on the floor.
What your capable of and the power restraining you from it...
Is no longer there.
However fear no longer holds me back.
I'll stand up to you,
Protect my loved ones from you.
Barricade you out of my life.
Mother's are supposed to help not hinder,
How dare you cut me this deep,
Forgiveness is not an option to you.
Your punishment is never looking me eye to eye,
But instead knife to knife.
You are my enemy and I will treat you as such.
You can call it insubordination...
I call it saving my life.

Feather dipping into cool water,
Why does blood tend to splatter?
Angel wings dyed vivid scarlet.
My execution is set.
Cruelty and pain meet numb flesh,
As death and life both mesh,
The greyness creates an opaque haze...
"Grandma... I swear, it's just a phase."

Random poems, I was bored and angry at my mom for everything she has done and is doing. I wish she'd stop all the stupid lies that are starting to drown me. Her ability to mentally wear me down is functioning all to well, and I wish she'd realize I'll be gone if she doesn't open her eyes. Because if it's to late she won't even get to see me walk away.
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Dec. 31st, 2004 @ 06:03 pm Needed to put this somewhere so I can recall it!
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: The electric heater
Chapter 21
Smiles and Overwelming Sorrow

The sky shone a vibrant orange and lined the morning clouds with pink. The crimson sun rose over the large city of Tokyo, lighting everything in it's path. Several bright sunbeams fired through the Higurashi shine's windows and pooled warm sunshine ontop of Kagome's sheets. The girl squinted and yawned, stirring from her slumber. She streached out her body, limbs poking out from beneath rose coloured blankets. Kakashi wandered through her door just as she sat up; he noticed that her raven hair was tangled from sleep.
"Ohayou!" He said cheerfully, glad his barrier had worked over the night. Kagome looked unharmed and rested.
Kagome smiled and turned to sensei. "Ohayou..." Her voice was soft and slurred in her semi-consciousness. "...what time is it?" She looked around, unable to remember what she did with her alarm clock, then she faintly recalled Inuyasha smashing it a few months back. That hanyou could be a pain sometimes.
It took the jounin a slight glance out the window to assess the position of the sun and the time of season before he came up with an answer. "About eight." Was time really that important? He looked to the young miko and thought not, for she had laid back down with a dazed grin on her face. "Eight you say..." She closed her eyes for a second before she ripped the covers off herself and jumped to her feet in a panic. "I'm going to be late!" She ran to her dresser and pulled out that day's attire before looking to the teacher in the doorway. "Do you think you could get out... so I could change?"
The ninja was on the verge of complying, but instead he raised a grey eyebrow, "Late for what?"
"School..."
He had expected that response. Sometimes sensei's asked questions for no apperant reason. The jounin swore it come with the job. "I suggest you all stay home from school today. At least until lunch so I can set up some protection over there." It was a nearly impossible feat to set up an invisable barrier that streached over that amount of surface area. It looked like shadowing the two genins and Kagome would be his course of action. So much work... and he thought this 'break' to Tokyo would get the young nins out of his hair.
Kagome sighed and ran a hand through her semi tangled hair. "Oh... in that case I don't need to get dressed." She streached and noticed a tinge of disappointment appear across the jounin's face. It didn't quite hook her curiousity, but the sudden "Oh... darn." That slipped from Kakashi's masked mouth did. She was just about to ask what was the problem, when she noticed that the teacher had fled. Perhaps he wished that he could have peekeed on her changing? No... someone with his authority wouldn't do such a thing... would they? Honestly, what was happening the current teachers in the world?
Meanwhile, downstairs, a semi-dazed Sasuke blinked and stared and the ceiling from the couch. Things were waving at him that shouldn't be. This was registered as a problem within the young Uchiha brain. The genin wondered why the shapes swimming in his recently activated vision didn't fit into the logical background. He sighed touching a tender spot on the back of his head that was strangly flat... like the bottom of a frying pan. "I bet this was Kakashi's doing..." He muttered tiredly, though he had flipped out on the jounin, making Kakashi's actions excusable.
The sound of fabric brushing fabric as the boy slipped to his feet were one of the first noises to reach Sasuke's ears, as well as the faint conversation upstairs. The nin didn't care though, for his wobbily footing and pounding headache throbbing within his sore skull took most of his awareness. He was starting to wish Kakashi had taken a more subtile and less physical method of calming him down. Then again, bluntness was one of those skills his sensei excelled at.
Quietly Sasuke entered the kitchen, taking immediate notice of two factors distrubing him within his new surroundings. One was Kakashi sitting peacefully at the table, raven eye gazing at Sasuke with a sort of pierecing look. Two was the bright light from the sunbeam through the kitchen window highlighting the wooden table, and the floresent lights above providing some protection against morning shadows curling in the courners of the room. Both these items made Sasuke uncomfortable, but he sat across from his sensei anyway.
"I see you're awake." Came the waited comment from Kakashi, making Sasuke wince with the sudden intrusion of words, interuppting the thick silence.
"The lights are to bright..." Sasuke replyed serenely, not really caring as he realized his headache was waning.
"Head hurt much?" The jounin smiled, pressing Sasuke's buttons in a hope to anger him. His students need to learn to contrtol their tempers. Perhaps annoying them constantly would allow them to devolpe there own annoyance immunity. Though, with Naruto around... withstanding annoyance was a necessity.
Bastard... Sasuke mentally retorted, grimacing at Kakashi's attempt to tick him off. The boy gingerly tapped the bump on his head, earning a twinge of pain just as Kagome entered the room. Instantly he noticed her ruffled hair and wrinkled pajama's. The girl hadn't even bothered to change, perhaps she was planning on staying home today. Though her absence may raise suspicion and people would come loo-
"Ohayou Sasuke." Kagome smiled cheerfully, temporaly rendering Sasuke thoughtless. What was it about her smile that was so different then those other girls in Konoha?
Kakashi wondered why Sasuke wasn't yelling at him, then he looked to Kagome, then back to Sasuke before smiling faintly. Ahh... the ties that bind without the victums knowing. The jounin watched his student turn to face him, pale face looking like a cross between indesicion and daze. The teacher wondered if the genin would now begin to rant.
"Sorry for losing my temper yesterday Sensei."
If Kakashi wasn't as controlled as he was in emotional witholding, his jaw would have dropped. Uchiha Sasuke apologeize!? Something was up... was he going to randomly attack him? This sort of situation never happened. He might as well go along with his 'sorry' and figure out the rest later. "Apology accepted."
Sasuke turned to Kagome and smiled faintly, the look unfamillar on his pale face. It was a smirk... or an impish grin, but a genuine smile. Kakashi was starting to think his student was possesed. "Ohayou Kagome." He said quietly, looking up from his seat, headache gone completely in her presence. Her slate eyes sparkled in the morning light, glowing majestically and making her face shine.
"Did you sleep well?" She asked, interrupting Sasuke's trailing thoughts and causing him to say the first thing that came to mind.
"I slept?"
Kakashi grinned, "The entire night through," his words resounded with finality. A finality Sasuke felt was purposily placed there. The only thing the genin could reply with was a sigh and a murmered 'ow'. Kagome however was alittle confused at Sasuke's verbal announcement of pain.
"I Guess that a no... there's a broken spring in that couch you know-"
The girl stopped her sentance as a ruffled looking Naruto sleepily entered the room, rubbing his watery blue eyes and plunking himself down beside Sasuke. Both Kakashi and the stunned raven haired nin stared blankly at the blonde, neighter thought that he'd be awake this early. But yet again, a clueless Kagome startedd a new conversation, including the newcomer. "Ohayou Naruto. Do you want ramen for breakfast? I was going to make pancakes though... would that be okay?" She smiled as the boy nodded groggily in reply, then she began to pull out the ingrediants she would need to make the breakfast batter.
The elder ninja looked to his brightly dressed student and frowned in apperant concern. "Naruto? Are you alright?" This question was unecessary considering that the cerulean eyed boy had just agreed to have pancakes instead of ramen, even when it was offered.
The blonde raised his head, shocking the jounin with his dull eyes, they lacked the livliness they once held and seemed darker. "I'm really tired... my body's numb..." He yawned as if to prove his statement, though no more proof was needed, Naruto's lack of enegry was obvious.
Sasuke noticed this as well. This Naruto wasn't like the annoying, hyperactive, unintellegent yet determined Naruto that he knew and hated well. Perhaps it was just the morning getting to the nin, but he did seem more... distant... as if he had something on his mind. Besides that, the usual Naruto wouldn't complain about his pysical condition infront of Sasuke, not unless it was a dire situation, and even then it was rare.
The thoughtful stares made Naruto feel like a guinea pig as he sat at the table in Kagome's kitchen, faint smell of burning pancake batter stinging his nose. Some droplets of the mixture had slid down the pan in the cooking transfer. The blonde wondered what had happened to make him feel so groggy. What ever it was... it made him seem like he was on the razor's edge of a large black pit... and he didn't know what. Something seemed so close... something evil.
Naruto shook his head free of those kind of thoughts. Whatever was about to happen he wasn't going to let a stupid thing like his 'mind' get in his way! He was going to become Hokage and he would get people to acknowledge him, and that was that. "What happened to Orochimaru?" The sudden question was blurted out of the boy's mouth before he could think, not that he usually did before talking.
"Gone again." Kakashi answered, looking at Kagome and sighing silently. She wouldn't understand if he continued anyway, besides, Naruto needed to be informed about what had happened in regards to his seal. "I had to remove the seal he placed on you, but Kyuubi was a little up tight so he tried to fight your consciousness for possession. Congrats Naruto, you defeated him with your will." The sensei gave a smile, not a sarcastic smile, but a real smile.
"Then why do I feel like crap?" Victory usually felt a whole lot better then this... there was usually some sense of self satisfaction. But noe he won something without even knowing it, wait... did that mean he could win a battle while sleeping? Oh... he was so claiming bragging rights. He smirked in spite of himself, making Sasuke raise an eyebrow.
Kagome interuppted the three's thoughts by placing a giant plate of pancakes on the table, along with a bottle of syrup and some plates. "Here" She grinned.
Everyone muttered a quiet thank-you before Kakashi answered Naruto's earlier question with a chuckle. "You've been through alot mentally and Kyuubi just attempted to face your emotions. Right now your mental stability is in question..."
"Wasn't it always?" Sasuke commented in a low whisper to himself.
"I don't understand..." Naruto said, grabbing a few pancakes from the stack and throwing them on a plate. "Arigatou Kagome-chan" He smiled, getting a smile in return from Kagome who sat herself down at the table and served herself breakfast. As she poured her syrup she wondered what they were talking about... Kakashi's face was looking rather depressed.
"Anyway... I didn't come here to play around, I have news to tell you..." He faded off gravely, "But I'm not sure I want to tell you this... especially with the effect it will have on Naruto." The sensei lookedd to Naruto who's ocean colored eyes wavered. What was it Kakashi couldn't tell him? Sasuke sure as hell wanted to know. "What is it?"
Kagome suspected the news had something to do with the guy they fought yesterday... that Orochimaru character. She quietly ate her pancakes as she contemplated, attention on the words Kakashi was spouting. She wanted to know what was going on.
"A body was found yesterday."
Sasuke's black eyes widened and he was about to say something, when it hit him. It was so obvious now that he recalled the results of the Chuunin exam... and the grass nins Orochimaru ran into. He looked to Naruto, fully understanding why Kakashi did not want to infrom the blonde.
"W-what?" Naruto said faintly. He didn't like the way they were looking at him like that.
"Azuma found it yesterday and told me... when I examined it... I realized what it meant... the body was face less."
Now they knew why Kakashi arrived earlier then scheduled. Now they knew why Naruto wasn't supposed to be informed... Now they knew...
"Iruka is dead."

Chapter 22
Breakdown

There was no way that the sensei Naruto loved could be gone. No possible way. Iruka would have stayed alive somehow, for him. Maybe he wasn't worth it, maybe the bond they shared wasn't strong enough. Maybe... maybe he was in denial.
"NO!" Naruto screamed as tears coursed down his cheeks. He didn't care if Sasuke saw him cry. That bastard wouldn't know on emotion if it came up and bit him in the ass. "It's can't be true! It's can't be!"
"Iruka is dead." Kakashi repeated, wondering if he should go over and comfort the poor weeping blonde. Sadly he was no good at that sort of thing, though he did now what it felt like to lose someone close. The life of a shinobi is hard.
Kagome looked up from the table and glanced sadly over to Naruto. Iruka must have meant alot to him. She watched the boy try and get off his stool, but all he managed to do was flop over and land pathetically on the kitchen floor, his body trembling in overwelming sorrow. "You're lying... you're lying..." He practically chanted, wishing those magic words would bring him back.
Naruto: No!
Kakashi: Iruka is dead.
Naruto: No! No!
*looks up her eyes wide before looking over to Naruto her eyes a little sad*
Naruto: *eyes start to water* No... No... your lying! He's not... he can't be~ *tries to get up off his stool but sloppily falls over at hits the ground*
Kakashi: Naruto... *rises and walks over* This happens a lot in a person's lifetime...
*looks at Sasuke* ~????~
Naruto: No... why... *sobs and pounds the ground* It's not fair....
Sasuke: *stares at the table wide-eyed. Iruka... Sensei...
*stands before kneeling by Naruto* Naruto? Daijoubu?
Kakashi: Naruto... ~I'm surprised he took it so well..~
Naruto: ~Why why why why why.... WHY?!~ *cries harder* ~He was like... he was...~ *screams* IRUKA-SENSEI!!!
Naruto: *gets to his feet, red tendrils of chakra weaving around him*
Kakashi: ... Naruto! NARUTO!!! Calm down! I demand you calm down!!!
*stands and looks at Naruto* Naruto... calm down *reaches out to him* ~Maybe I can...~
Kakashi: *panics and pulls out a scroll*
Naruto: *looks surprisingly calm* No... *form starts to change*
Sasuke: Kagome watch it!!!
Na....ruto? Calm down onegai... ~His aura changed....~
Naruto: *sends a wave of energy out from his body*
Kakashi and Sasuke: *both fly backwards*
Kakashi: *catches himself and digs into the linoleum* CALM DOWN!!!
Sasuke: *hits the counter and falls to the floor* AHHRG!!! ~Why is it always ME?!~
*had blocked herself with some of her miko energy* Naruto! *looks worried* Calm down... please you're going to wreck my kitchen...
Sasuke: K...kagome....?
*looks over at Sasuke* Yeah?
Naruto: ~So... my life has been ruined...~
Kyuubi: +Then it's not worth living....+
Naruto: *nods silently and his eyes go a bloody amber color*
Sasuke: I didn't know.... your miko powers... were that powerful..
Oh... well only when my life is in dan... *looks back at Naruto* Naruto?
Naruto: ~I'm... going... to... no... I can't!~
Kyuubi: +Give up already!+
Naruto: *silent* ~ Iruka-sensei... Gomen... *sinks deep into his mind*
Kyuubi: *laughs using Naruto's mouth* MINE!!!
Kakashi: No! Shit! I thought this was going to happen!
*almost jumps back* Naruto.....
Sasuke: NARUTO!!!
Kyuubi: *snarls* Oh... he's sleeping now... forever. Pathetic host. Finally, the right emotion to take over and the one called Kakashi hand fed it to me...
*looks at 'Naruto'* ~What happened....~
Kyuubi: *pushs more energy out pinning Sasuke to the wall and straining Kagome's barrier*
*winces slightly keeping her barrier up* Naruto... what are you doing...
Sasuke: Get back Kagome!
Kakashi: Shit... Kagome! It's not Naruto anymore!
Sasuke: Kagome! You know how Inuyasha is half demon right? Naruto has a full demon sealed inside him and the seal just broke! He's a demon now! He's not Naruto!
*eyes widen as she takes a step back* Like when... Inuyasha loses Tessaiga..
Kyuubi: *laughs and rushes at Kagome*
Sasuke: RUN!!! *tries to move but can't*
Kakashi: NARUTO!!!
Naruto: ~NO!!!~
Kyuubi: *freezes* What the?
Kakashi: *raises eyebrow*
*opens one eyes and looks over at Naruto dropping her shield* ~Maybe I could....NO! That only worked cause it was Inuyasha....~


Naruto: *behind huge bars that once held Kyubi* Stop it! I will not allow you to kill off those who are close to me... *eyes still look dull* I won't. You can have my body, just do not kill those close to me.
Kyuubi: Deal?
Naruto: You can have my body forever as long as those requirements are met.
Kyuubi: DEAL!



Naruto?
Kyuubi: *red chakra disappears* Lucky... oh so lucky...
*blinks and tilts her head* Your eyes?
Kyuubi: He won't let me kill you...
Kyuubi: My eyes are the color of the blood I spill...
*takes a step closer to Kyuubi* They're beautiful... despite what you say about the...blood. *smiles nervously* I've never seen anyone with eyes like that before.
Kyuubi: Well, if you’re lucky you'll see them again wench...
Kakashi: Kyuubi! Leave the boy's boy! NOW!
Kyuubi: *turns and growls* Who thinks they can command me around like some subordinate fool? *grabs Kakashi by the throat* This body is now mine... it seems familiar somehow... Like it was meant to be mine.
Kyuubi.....? ~He's like Inuyasha... calling me a wench.....Must be a demon thing~
Kakashi: He has nothing to do with you! *holds back his hands remembering like it was yesterday Naruto stabbed himself and vowed never to run away* ~Look at what your doing now... Naruto...~
Kyuubi: But he has everything to do with me fool! We were one from he beginning and he's the son of that stupid fool that sealed me in the first place.
*looks at Sasuke* Sasuke... *moves over to him* Daijoubu?
Kyuubi: Think of it as revenge... *throws Kakashi against the wall*
CRACK!
Kakashi: *clutches his ribs* NARUTO!!! YOUR MAKING A BIG MISTAKE!!!
Naruto: ~That's all I'm good for...~
*looks back up at Kyuubi* HEY! YOU ASS I DON'T CARE WHAT THE HELL YOU ARE! YOU'D BETTER NOT WRECK MY KITCHEN!
Sasuke: Stop it Kagome! You don't know what you’re getting into!
*glares at Kyuubi ignoring Sasuke* Even Naruto wasn't this destructive.. I like him better then I like you! You're.... JUST LIKE INUYASHA! A BAKA!
Kyuubi: *snorts then smiles* Taste my power wench... Boom....
BOOM!!! *house explodes and everyone is hurled away in the eruption*
Kyuubi: *smiles and runs off*
*lands with a giant splash in a fairly deep pond*
Kakashi: *lands on top of the school*
Sasuke: *In a tree... somewhere...*
*comes up sputtering moving to the shore and climbing onto the grass* That JERK! He blew up my house! *wrings out her hair and her pajama bottoms* Now I'm wet and have no dry clothes.... *sighs* WHY DOES WEIRD STUFF ALWAYS HAPPEN TO ME!
Orochimaru: *sits intop of the building with the well and looks at the wreckage* Interesting...
Kakashi: *unlucky fell on concrete with broken ribs and is now in bad condition and unconscious*
*looks around the park* SASUKE!? KAKASHI!?
Sasuke: *also unconscious but falls out of his tree and lands in a dumpster near the park*
BANG!
*The lid falls down*
*grumbles* Now I have to look for them in my wet clothes... *starts looking around the park*
*sighs in annoyance* ~Maybe Inuyasha could sniff them out....~ *continues to look*
*walks past a dumpster* SASUKE! KAKASHI!
Sasuke: Aaaa.... oh.... Mhfd.... Ow.
*opens the lid to the dumpster* Sasuke?
Sasuke: ... urg...
Sasuke! Daijoubu?
Sasuke: ... for once... no.
Ano... can you move?
Sasuke: ... I'm buried alive in waste... and my head is throbbing. I can't feel my legs and I don't know how I got in here... Sure... *wriggles half-heartily*
*laughs and smiles* Here I'll help you out.... *looks around for something to stand on and finds a half rotted wodden box steps up on it reaching her hand down to Sasuke* Here
Sasuke: *reaches outwards his arms feeling limp* Are you sure you can do this...?
*nods* It'll be like the time... well... it'll be easier then convincing a certain Wolf youkai he's not in love with me ^^
Sasuke: ... ok... How much weight can you lift?
*shrugs* What's the worst that can happen?
Sasuke: You can rip my arms out of their sockets; there could be something sharp within this box...
Would you rather stay in there? I can go find Kakashi instead.
Sasuke: No! I just need to know how much weight you can carry.
Sasuke: If it's approximate say a bit under the weight you can carry.
I don't know how much weight I can carry!
Sasuke: Fine then! ~Fuck, this is gonna kill me...~ POOF! *turns into a shiny kunai* ~Hope she realizes to pick me up..~
*raises an eyebrow and picks the kunai up putting it down on the ground beside the box*
UNPOOF!
Sasuke: *lies on the ground breathing heavily*
*blinks and hops off the box* Sasuke?
Sasuke: ~Note to Self: Cloning Jutsu's are not a good idea when your critical...~ ...
Sasuke... Do you need some of my powers? You don't looks to good....
Sasuke: ... that... would be nice...
*smiles and grabs Sasuke's hand with both of hers*
Sasuke: *steals some Miko Chakra*
You know... this feels kinda funny...
Sasuke: *concentrating* Hummmm....
Feels... like... *smiles contently* ^^
Sasuke: *exhales and smiles* Arigatou....
Sasuke: Zzzzz........................
*shakes her head* Now what... I can't wake him up.... *sighs and moves uncomfortably in her wet clothes*
Voice from a bit behind Kagome: Need some help?
*turns and is a bit suspicious* Yes please.
Sakura: *smiles and tucks her pink hair behind her ears and kneels down beside Sasuke* Sasuke-kun... *rolls him over*
*blinks* You know Sasuke?
Sakura: Yes... *leans into Sasuke's ear* Sasuke-kun... Naruto's stealing you Shuriken...
Sasuke: ... Mmm?
Sakura: Wake up... Please?
Sasuke: Am I back? In Konoha?
Sakura: No... your lying on the ground outside and metal box filled with garbage in... Tokyo.
*stands silently for a moment* I can see you're handling this... I'm going to go look for Kakashi... okay?
Sasuke: *opens his eyes* Sakura?
Sasuke: Kagome!
Hai? *looks at Sasuke*
Sasuke: *sits bolt upright* I can't believe I fell asleep! I'm so Sorry! *looks down at the still kneeling Sakura* Sakura? What the hell are you doing here!
Sasuke... I'm going to looks for Kakashi.. I can see your fine with... Sakura was it?
Sakura: Kakashi didn't return so I thought you guys were in trouble. I couldn't bare the thought of you being hurt Sasuke-kun!
Sasuke: Oh... yea. Kagome! I suggest you call Inuyasha and see if he'll accompany you. I'll follow you with Sakura. I don't think Inuyasha would like me to interfer...
What do you mean interfere? *raises an eyebrow*
About this Entry
Nov. 22nd, 2004 @ 12:02 pm Merow! Merow!
It's lunch time... and I'm bored, so I'm going to write! Letsee...
Meow.
Merow? Merow... Mew...
That's all I can think of at the moment.
OH OH! Umm... I have English next block... and most likely a test on a story I didn't even read. It was to... well... boring. I'd type personally thingies but people are looking at me odd as they cruise around looking for a computer to use. My sister's baby is due any day now! And I met a few people at the baby shower from mom's... work. I realized I dislike brandy for it tastes like cough syrup.
Apperantly several guys like me now... Mya's stalker count: 3 1/2
Save me.
Pwease?
Males that like me, scare me... they make me want to run as fast as I can in the opposite direction. My reflex I suppose? Meh. Bell's going to go soon. Sayonara
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Aug. 14th, 2004 @ 10:34 am Hey hey
Look! I'm updating again!
This time it's a little happier =^^=. My sister is getting all excited about her baby now that she's told her father. The ultra-sound was really cool ^^ They nurse thinks it's a girl, but they didn't get a good look, however the doctor said that the heartbeat seemed 'boy-ish' so it's still fifty-fifty. Personalty I think it's a boy because of the hell it's inflicting to my sister... she sounds awful >< She barfs all the time.
I still have boy troubles. My stalker pal won't leave me alone and he's getting all sappy. I swear... someday I'll have to pry him off with a crow-bar.
Chris showed me the weirdest/funniest show on the plant... "Sailor Moon: Live Action." It's... so bizarre it's indescribable. I suggest you watch it ^^.
Well... this is the earliest I've been awake in a month. I'm surprised my brain is still funtioning... anyhoo... I ran out of topics so I'll try to update more often >>
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Jul. 17th, 2004 @ 07:00 pm It's The Little Things
I'm not one to be 'bitchy' or to complain. I try to look at the bright side of things and stay away from straying towards the dark. My childhood may not be perfect, but hey... who has a 'perfect' Childhood? I like the way I turned out... a charismatic always cheerful little cat-girl who doesn't want to take off her mask in order to sort things out. Why sort things out when you can hide? I think I'm rather good at hiding from my past... but lately, I'm having problems hiding from the present.
I've noticed for awhile how much my Mother seems to be drinking. She can't go one day without having several glasses of cider or wine. She's been acting weird... and I don't know how to fix it.
My sister is pregnant, and I'm worried about her constantly. She's not well and insists on cleaning the house non-stop in her condition. I wish I could help, but whatever I do is wrong and I don't want to interfere knowing that I will only make it worse. I hope she'll get better...
Everyone seems to neglect me lately, only caring about me when it benefits or hinders them. "Mya... you're not eating and people are thinking that I'm starving you!" Well, if she had been home and sober enough to remember to cook me dinner I may actually have eaten something. "Mya... you're sleeping all day! And you're not getting your chores done!" Well, thank-you for the wake up call, I'll do the dishes when I'm awake enough to dirty them, and I'll clean the house when I leave my room to mess it up. I can't help staying up all night taking a break from the constant bickering that criss-crosses between the members of my family. Sleeping all day rids my of that =^^=.
I guess that's all I wanted to post. Sometimes even the cheerful need to complain. I am most likely at fault for all my problems... but everyone has the right to complain... don't they?
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Mar. 11th, 2003 @ 11:42 am Damn stupid people!
Current Mood: weird
Current Music: Library chatter... they ruin the scene...
Meow! I got a B in French! It would have been an A if I handied in my "Le monde de television..." whatever that means. My kitty was curled up on my lap this morning while I was reading a novel. It was annoying and cute rolling in to on emotion... cutoying... annuting? Anyway... you not the worlds ending when dumb people keep proving you wrong... and people make me blush went I ask how to spell "vernacular". It's not THAT complicated of a word... it means common language in an established nation or state, unless I spelled it wrong then t could mean anything from a cow-pie to a old boot.
My momby was drunk a few days ago. She stayed up till 1:30 playing music off Kazaa. It wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't blasting out of the speakers, country music and my momby wasn't screaming the lyrics which she didn't knowin the first place.
I'm trying to figure out how Rayne and Iruka make there live journal entries so perdy. With all the funny colurs and weird pictures... oh well. I'll have to get them to teach me. Lollipops taste good. Not the top stiky part but the stick. Takes longer to eat an has the lollipop flavoring... envelopes taste good to as ome people witnessed my eat half of one.
Well that's all I'm gonna wirte for today... thi wa a funny way to spend my lunch hour... hope Chris will visit sometime... come to think of it I hadn't seen Chels for a while... See-yas!

Princess Silver =^.^=
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Mar. 10th, 2003 @ 12:02 pm Kitty...
Current Mood: groggy
Current Music: Chatting people...
Hey people, Meow... I've decided to quit writing my novels on here considering I'm bored and just want to write about the previous week.
As some people may know, my kitty Pandora died on Friday. She went to a better place I know... but still I miss her. *sob* anyways, I'm back from spending a week at my Grama's and I am so sad and lonely. Oh well, I have have books and my novel... and not to mention my favorite kitty Bellamaddonna. Belle for short. Funny name isn't it? I watched "The man in the Iron Mask" yesterday... It wasn't bad actually. I want to watch another movie... SO BORED! Well I guess I should stop writing now.. the bell for Social Studies is about to ring.
Who wants to learn about the French revolution anyways? I kinda do... but I could of missed out on the "civil war" God those guys are dumbasses! Charging the King with Treason? How is it possible for the king to be arrested for trying to overthrow himself? Some people...
Majukku Mugen is not dead anymore... I'm glad, being evil is fun... but hard cause I don't know what evil people do... I guess I should study Mr. Barker more... In my opinion he is the center of all evil.
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Jan. 8th, 2003 @ 09:12 pm Skyler's polt
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Enya (Lord of the Rings: soundtrack)
Skyler smiled and withdrew his hand from beneath his cloak. "Bravery with not win you this battle Crimzon. You see... If you don't hand over your powers willingly, I'll take them forcefully!" In a blink of an eye, a loud snap erupted from Skyler's palm. Instantly a large gust of wind sprang from nowhere and started to draw everything towards him. Crimzon and Tara's combined weight held them to the ground, however Silver wasn't so lucky.
The force of the gust knocked Silver foward onto the dewy grass where she slid towards Skyler's waiting form. "Crimzon!" She shrieked as she deasperatly clung to tuffs of grass that broke at her slightest clench.
Skyler chuckled at her pitiful attempt to hold herself down. Crimzon however was holding on to his mother and incapable of helping Silver out of her situation without leaving his mom to be sucked towards Skyler as well. "Three choices Crimzon, Surrender you power, save your sister while abandoning your mother or vice-versa." Skyler seemed to enjoy the look of agony on Crimzon's face while he chose between his loved ones.
A tear trickled down Tara's face. "Crimzon... save my Silver... then leave... here." Tara handed Crimzon a crystal that hung around her neck. Give this to Silver, it will help you get to Belleville... go!" Tara croaked through her dry throut.
Closing his eyes her gently layed Tara down. "Mom, I'll save you... even if..." He opened his eyes and turned to Skyler, how still was sucking in the giant gusts through his hand.
Silver shrieked as the grass she held onto snapped and she tumbled into Skyler's feet. Instanly the wind died and Skyler grabbed Silver by the back of her pull over dress. Being deprived of air from her dress digging into her neck Silver kicked out at her attacker. "Let... me go!" she gasped. Skyler laughed, "I'll take your powers first!" He took his hand and touched Silver's forehead with his fingertips. She shreiked in agony as pain seared through her mind.
"Silver!" Crimzon shouted, feeling as if he had enough of this 'Skyler' Crimzon narrowed his eyes and concentrated all of his energy for the next task.
"noryoku no hikari, kasu watashi no aru chikara!"
Skyler stopped stealing Silver's powers and turned, not expecting Crimzon's plan. Suddenly from the ground beneath Crimzon sprang a fountain of molten lava. At the core stood Crimzon embracing his Seraphian powers. His hair turned from starnds of Blonde/red to short tendrils of flickering flames. His once red eyes where changed to the color of a winter sunset. At Crimzon's side a long sword wrought of steel and surrounded in metallic red fire. From his shoulders exploded a pair of flaming seraphian wings. Just as uruptly as the lava appeared, it vanished back into the ground leaving a pit of ashes behind. Crimzon stood glaring at Skyler, who held his sister hostage. "I Crimzon, Master of Fire and Metal, Guardian of Light guided by the golden sun, demand you set my sister down and leave at once." His flaming wings beat impatiently, "I'm waiting..."
Skyler's look of surprise faded off his face as the half conscious Silver dangled from his hands. A smile replaced his old glare and he raised Silver's form higher in a taunting manner, silently he lavitated a meter off the ground. "I'm not finished with your sister yet!". Silver wriggled, trying to worm her way out of his grasp. She whimpered as his hand touched her foreheade again, and a look of agony emitted on her pale face.
Crimzon's red eye's glowed and he lunged foreward, flaming sword in hand. He leaped into the air and beat his crimson wings. With one shocked look from Skyler Crimzon swiftly sliced off the hand holding Silver. Skyler screamed and Silver plummeted to the ground.
Somersalting as she hit the ground reduced most the pain of Silvers impact however she stil lay half conscious on the muddy ground. Then from Skylers wound rose a pale blue ghostly smoke. It travelled to Silver's figure then was absorbed into her body. Silver took a deep breath then stood, glad to have her seraphian power back. Skyler however was still winceing in pain and glancing darklt at Crimzon through narrowed eyes. "You... I underestimated... However I will not leave emptyhanded..." Skyler uttered a strange spell at Tara. Suddenly golden dust flew from Tara to Skyler. "Fare-well young Seraphs. We'll meet again, next time you won't be so lucky." And with that Skyler rocketed into the air, holding a bleeding stump for a hand.
Silver wobbled then fell to her knees, then letting out a large sigh she rested her hand on her head. Crimzon soared down to his mother, then closer he came to the ground the more his transformed features returned to normal. His wings dissapeared and the flames atop his head returned to blonde with red tips, his eyes stopped glpwing and his sword dispersed into a regular sword. "Mother?" He said to Tara, "We won! That guy... whatever his name was didn't- Mom?" He felt his mother's cold hands "Mom...you can't..." He looked into her emerald green eyes, they were lifeless and dark. "MOM!" He cried into the cold evening sky.
Silver's mouth fell open in response to her brother's cry, but all that came out was silenced by Crimzon's yell "SKYLER! I'LL KILL YOU!" Silver felt his power of fire radiate off his skin. Then sobbed into the sweet grass, wishing her mother was here to comfort her.
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Nov. 25th, 2002 @ 12:04 pm Queen Ryoko? Princess Tara? WHAT!
Silver stopped at the smolding mound of used to be her Mother's cottage. Tears leaked from her metallic silver eyes. "Our home..." She sobbed into Crimzon's chest. However he was glancing around the place for any sign of his mom.
"Where's mother?" He said as she started to lift some of the scorching wood off the trashed kithen counter. "I don't see her anywhere..."
"What could have caused this?" Silver cried through her tears. "Mother..."
Suddenly worming her way through the destroyed wreakage, Silver and Crimzon's mother Tara appeared ashen faced and bruised. "S...Silver... Crimzon... Run." She gasped.
Crimzon ran over and helped his mother in a comfertable position. "Why? What happened here? Did the stove explode or something?" She said as Tara's brown hair fluttered aross her soot covered cheek.
Instantly a man appeared, he was white haired and held a impish grin on his face. His black cloak billowed out behind him. "I happened..." He chuckled, "Poor Princes Tara... so helpless to defend herself..."
Crimzon practically glowed with anger. His face turned red with fury and matched his red tipped hair. "You..." Crimzon was lost for words. Tara stirred within his lap.
"Skyler's a evil sorcerer... Crimzon... take Silver... and make for Belleville. Meiyo dwells there... she can take you to Sera... you'll be safe there." Tara said weakly as her vision blurred.
"Skyler... the demon seraph... you tryed to destroy my grandmother... and you murdered my great grandfather... how can you be alive?" Silver questioned petrified, "And why are you here!?"
"Pathetic fool, I am immortal and I come from the far courners of Sera to take you and your brother's power's..." Skyler grimaced. "You are the last genoration of seraphs... even if you are only part seraphian..."
"Never! We do not use our powers unless it's a desperate situtaion! And what makes you think we'll give them up so willingly." Crimzon yelled. Suddenly he wished he could have reversed that last statement.
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Nov. 21st, 2002 @ 11:46 am The Entrance of Crimzon and Silver
HI! My name is Mya, and I'm a novelist. So... out of extreme boredom I present to you some of my writing skills:

The sound of crackling pine needles and heavy breathing hovered in the air as a variety of trees and plants passed by in a blur. Hunter green foliage surrounded the shadowed form of a small girl about ten years of age. She halted her running and leaned against a mossy birch tree and gasped for air. She slid down the tree in exhaustion with a look of terror in her silver eyes. She dare not talk for fear of revealing her position.
Suddenly footsteps broke the silence of the serene forest; the girl became tense and closed her eyes. Her chestnut brown hair fell across her face, she ignored it and continued to listen for the petrifying sounds of her stalker. The crunching of leaves and pine needles approached her location, then they stopped. The girl relaxed yet kept alert, still hoping that her follower wasn't plotting anything.
After listening for several minuted she decided to crawl out and chance a look around. She nervously glanced around then got to her feet. She dusted off her dirty tights and pull-over dress. She sighed then smiled, she was sure her prowler was gone. Just then she heard a rustle in the birch tree she was previously hiding behind. Slowly she turned around hoping that it was wasn't what she thought it was. She looked up and saw a crouching shadow in a low branch, then a panicked thought raced into her mind. It wasn't crouching, it was getting ready to jump!
Instantly it leaped and collided with the girl's shocked form, causing her to crash into the ground with the pursuer on her back. She struggled but the stalker had both her hands pinned. Her mouth was full of earth and pine needles.
"Crimzon! GET OFF!" The girl said as she spat out the soil and needles. "That was a unfair trick..."
"It was perfectly fair! But you however, came out of hiding during a game of HIDE and seek." The young boy named Crimzon said, "Besides you were breathing so hard mother could probably hear you!"
"Aww... and look, you got mud all over my dress." The young girl replied, trying to change the subject.
"Silver... we should be getting home..." Crimzon said as he combed his hand through his short blond hair that was dyed red at the tips.
Silver cast him a quizzical look and asked, "Why?"
Crimzon fumbled with the bottom of his earthy tunic. "Look... in sky... between the trees. You see the smoke, I can even smell it now..."
"Mother! It's coming from the cottage!" Silver yelled in a shocked tone, "Oh-no... Oh-no... Come on!" Silver grabbed Crimzon's hand and they made off through the forest hastily in the direction of there Mother's cottage.

HA! There you have it the introduction to my... umm...4th... no 5th novel... YEAH!
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